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man , my birthday this year is gonna suck because my oh so lovely boyfriend is "suppose" to leave for grenada to visit his family ... but i don't wanna seem selfish or anything but i really don't want him to GO especially on my birthday :'( .. but anyways this week i haven't really done anything , i haven't really been in the mood too and thats a bad thing . last night the new twilight movie came out and i wanted to go see it SOOOO bad but i didn't which is REALLY lame ..haha lately i've been doing alot of thinking also i mean some good & some bad . but im just gonna stay positive and keep it movin ' . ahh well my birthday month will be STARTING tomorrow so it time to act like a STRAIGHT DIVA . the whole month of JULY IS MINE !! LOL i sound like a bxtch but i really don't care . lets just cross our fingers and hope this month of JULY is a good one , kinda wish i was going to cali again like i did last summer for my birthday man that was SOOOO much fun . but im excited for my birthday and all but at the same time im not cause that closer to when my hubby leaves ...ehh i swear that makes everything so much worse .. but whatever just a lil update .

sierraVhalL

KEEP YOUR PRIVATE LIFE PRIVATE !!

one thing i hate is when people post things about their personal life , its like some things some people just don't need to know . it kills me cause then they start to get mad when people talk and mention stuff about it . like its your fault you shoulda never been putting your business out for the whole world to see . i had to learn the hard way i use to put all my business out , but now i've learned not to write too much into my personal life . say if me and my boyfriend were having problems the WORLD would not know because thats between me and him . SO PEOPLE please stop post subliminal messages on FB statuses or twitter its starting to get outta hand , NO ONE CARES about who said this or that .. i also hate when people argue over a statuses also you could CALL that person instead of being childish . i know we are ALL guilty of something in this blog . no one needs to know your business your suppose to make people wonder oh how are they doin , i wonder whats going on in your life ... you know what i mean ? cause you when post stuff already they just be like damn he/she sharing all his/her business .. ANOTHER PET PEEVE of mine is when people POST their sex life on the internet , thats so disrespectful stuff like that is suppose to be kept between you and your partner NO ONE else . i think stuff like that is SOOO private and personal . but whatever like i said KEEP YOUR PRIVATE LIFE PRIVATE ...


signed with love ,
sierraV O N

BET AWARDS was EPIC 8 )

chris brown made me cry , because he deserves a second chance just like anyone else and his mj tribute was a WONDERFUL comeback because we all knew how much he loved MJ and i was really happy he got an award . GO Chris brown !!

then ahh how i love love prince , i've loved him since i was younger .. people don't understand my love for that man .

then when i saw that tyrese was up there singing , man that is one beautiful CHOCOLATE man , i only like light skin but my goodness .

then i saw that travis barker was there , man oh man . i love him dearly .

but i really did enjoy the awards , it was the BEST one out of all the BET awards .. people who didn't enjoy all the old school stuff .. just don't know real music in my eyes coming from a musical family myself . i have a VERY good ear for music especially being that i sing .. but anyways im gonna end this blog with my favorite song by prince .. check it out ?

"if i was your girlfriend ,would you remember to tell me all of the things you forgot when I was your man?"

signed with music ,
sierraV O N

craSy dudes ...

i hate when dudes do things , just to get in good with guys ... that shit is super annoying . like if you tryna impress you friends over a girl you like or something just really dumb to me .. just sayin . also when guys do some OC shit just to get you to do something they want you to do .. and whats really sad now a days guys will say anything to a girl just to get them in the bed & have no kinda intentions of having a relationship after , so i feel bad for any girl that just GIVES up so easy i have more respect for myself .. im tellin dudes be on some wild stuff and some of them need to grow up and realize what they are doing & things they do can possible ruin other peoples lives .. im just saying society today is SO different from how things use to be back then . Guys just need to get their shit together instead of causing trouble & confusion .. its LIKE im over all these dudes IN VA !! because they seem like they don't know how to act or give respect to a lady .. but im glad i ain't got to worry about none of that shit .. i GOTS me a DC nigga ♥ lol i love him . but anyways you craSy niggas stop being retarded and if you tryna get in good with a girl respect her mind body and soul .. just sayin .

signed with a middle finger ,

sierraV O N

aye aye aye niggass ....

ah man last night was funny , i was on oovoo with my friends & these dudes named jaliyl & dino ... it was too funny & them niggas are super crazy . well today was super chill kinda wish i was in DC for the Caribbean festival .. but oh well im really not even feelin this weather like omg its TOO hot to even step outside , i feel like if i do i will melt into a puddle . i wish i could strip in the middle of the road like erykah badu , lol that would be some wild shit .. i got my hair done the other day is all flowly and pretty and stuff .. but me & my girls are planning a road trip for next week , hm it shall be interesting cause we are some wild ones & we know how to live it up and shit . im just really happy that its SUMMER time no need to worry about school , im super HAPPY about being a senior ahh thats wild everyone is growing up so fast .. its crazy how highschool pasted by super fast . & recently we celebrated one year of michael jackson's passing ... so sad . but may he rest in peace. well just wanted to update you all ... i love my life ♥

signed with love ,
sierraV O N

my thoughts ....

i've learned alot this week and im glad that i did ... now i have so much closure now that i've found out what i've been wanting to know thanks to the girl in my last blog. i'm in a time in my life where i'm not gonna hold grudges anymore or not like a certain person because of who they dated or what they've done . its time i look way beyond that like get to know them before judging because they could be the sweetest people in the world . i feel like i've done alot of growing up since i've learned how to share my feelings and lay everything out on the table without holding anything back . but anyways i wanna give a shout out to all the people that said me and adrien wouldn't last but look where we at now baby , so all of yall get the big EFF YOU !! so this summer has started to be a good one especially with the new things im learning about myself .. remember i have a mind of my own so i don't need anyone tellin me what to do or how i should do it or why im doin it.. cause last time i checked it was my life . this week has been great and i wouldn't change anything about it .. and for the first time last night i went to bed without feelin anything heavy on my heart because all the things i needed to know .. was told to me last night . but these are my thoughts who cares what you think about it .......

signed by ,

sierravon♥

dear jahaan ..

let me tell you i have mad respect for you , for sharing how you felt about this situation in your blog .. im truly sorry about what you had to go through .. i never really knew about you but i did .. but at this time adrien was really tryna do everything in his power to get us back where we are now & i told him he had to prove me that he was willin to change his cheating ways .. those are some of the reasons why i left him & the reason i kept coming back because i always felt we had unfinished business ... adrien is the type of person when you first meet him you can just fall in love with his smile & sense of humor . but just like any other guy he is capable of hurting you .. i don't know how he told you that we were back together & i don't know what he has told you about me .. but things didn't start getting serious until end of November & beginning of December .. but im not gonna say that im not happy that me and him are back together but i feel bad for any girl who goes through heart break because i have been there and it really hurts.. most people tell me never be friends with you boyfriends ex girl but your the first girl i know that isn't tryna be my friend just because im adriens girl and try to get the inside scoop on us .. i appreciate you ... thanks for holding him down when i wasn't around .. im pretty sure in a way you made him a better person too ..

sincerely and yours truly ,

sierraV O NhalL

past relationshipss .....

im sitting here wondering about past relationships that i've had & my boyfriends had ...i know i shouldn't but lately getting to know & reading jahaan's blog makes me wonder what did he do take me her feel the way she does ... because i know what he did to me to make me feel the way i did months ago . there is soo many things i could lay out on the table if you guys knew ... you would be LIKE OMG why are you even with this dude ... but i never question it because i don't need too im in love with him ... and relationships after him never worked because i always compared them to him .. WHY CAN'T YOU love me like he did , or kiss me like he did , or sweet talk me like he did... WHY AREN'T JUST LIKE HIM !! and then the guys would leave because any guy would hate to be compared to another guy ... thats when things start to fall apart and i would run back to my first love & here we are today together but the times he wasn't with me what did he do to these girls ... that made them feel the way they do , i know i shouldn't wonder because its none of my business but its just something on my mind ... wow these past relationshipss on my mind but im stickin with this one i got now til the end ...

signed with a kiss ,

s.von

thinkin tonight ....

i can't sleep tonight , tossing and turning & having all these what if's in my head.. there comes a time in your life where you feel like why are things these things happening to me why isn't going as planned .. and after everything that has happened why did it end up this way .. God truly works in mysterious ways. like as of now i was thinking about all those time me and adrien ended our relationship , times where i thought me and him would NEVER speak or be together again after all the GRIMEY shit he put me through & but its like whenever i tried to move on his face always popped in my head its like i could never date any guys because all i would see is his face & i wonder why if i don't speak to my boyfriend at night i can't sleep , its like im UP worrying about what he doing & if he is okay .. but im GLAD me and him are together and went through all that shiiit because it made me become so MUCH wiser & better as a person . i've learned that i NEED no MAN to make me happy . anyways more what if's & why's . i wonder why life is so unpredictable maybe because if we knew what was gonna happen before it happened we would try to prevent it from happening if that makes any sense at all . i just don't understand sometimes how things work i don't think i ever will ... i'm just like everyone else still learning from my mistakes & growing up ... people tell me everyday how mature i am for my age & how i need to keep this good HEAD on my shoulders but its LIKE i hate when people look at me they see PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT written all over me .. like i can't mess up ... however i've been through so much in my lifetime i've been backstabbed , i've been CHEATED on numerous times , i've been depressed i would go days without eating , i've been lied too im pretty sure millions of times , but through all these things GOD always made a way for me to forgive and move on and be happy with my life & i try to THANK him everyday for that .. back to adrien sometimes i feel really bad for all the girls he has hurt in his life time especially me but when me and him weren't together i wonder what he did , because i know he had to wildin out i just hope he knows that its not a GOOD feeling to have your heart broke .. and always use to wonder if he ever thought about me or talked about me .. i wonder if he spoke good about me ? word for word just everything . me and this boy have been on and off for almost 5 years now & right now we are soo dedicated to our relationship nothing can go wrong ... SO NO MORE WHAT IF'S because what we have is perfect ... NO MORE WHAT IF'S about life because i know GOD has something good in store for me .im happy with life and its time i accept it and instead of taking it for granted . thinkin tonight is the night where i let everything GO ........


signed yours truly ,
s.von

LIFES GOOD ♥

so this summer is pretty good , im making some new friends & even some my boyfriend doesn't approve of aka jahaan . LOL oh well she's cool. im excited for what this year has in store , usually summer is the time where all the break ups happen ..but i pray for the best with me and my boyfriend things haven't been this good between me and him in a long .. WE ARE DOING REALLY good . IM SOOOO in love . lol me and my friends have gotten better on communication wise.. i have NO MORE DRAMA ... because i always try to stay drama free .. im really trying to make some memories this summer 2010 and its gonna happen . i've been out pretty much everyday so no complaints and even had a lil shindig at my house it was fun we all watched "pineapple express" good stuff but its only funny when your high ... im starting to back into my poetry writing & i love it .. i missed it . starting to work out again get this body in shape yes indeed .. BUT I just thought i would update you guys , cause i've been slacking on my DIARY GAME .. its okay im get back on it i promise .

updated<3

summer 2010 ♥

having a good time & im still with my babe .

realizing ...

i've come to realize that i don't need friends , because in the end they are ALL FAKE & you can't trust them .. all i really need is my family & my boyfriend . they seem to be the only real ones i have a the moment . because my 3 bestfriends don't seem to be my THREE bestfriend . ya know? there comes a time when everyone is just growing apart & i think we all reached that limit ... so this weekend coming up i've decided that im just gonna disappear no one is gonna know where i am & im not gonna return or call anyone because i feel like i DESERVE a break forreal ...yes my friends might get mad but its like UGH how they have been acting lately its just really annoying ... but whatever .. some friends stay forever .. some go ain't no sweat off my back to be honest with yall .. but whatever im over & im happy .. you live & you learn i just have to make better choices when it comes to choosing my friends ..


UPDATED <3