quicksand ...

man , im really down tonight ... from everything that happened last night . i CRIED ALLL night long woke up w/ my eyes puffy as crap .. but i wanna cry now but im tryna be strong and forget about what happened last night .. after stuff like that i feel like my boyfriend is slippin away from me & i don't want him too , i need him to stick by my side & stay with me forever . .. i just want things to go back to normal & i had no worries . i always spoke highly of him .. and all that good stuff .. i hate the fact that i LOVE hard and its hard for me to let go of things .. idk i just hope things get better because i hate feeling this way ... its like i wanna be happy & i want him to be SWEET to me again ..... UGH i HATE THAT IM SOOO FREAKIN SENSITIVE . : ( FML ..

lately

lately i've found myself trippin over small things , im not wrong for wanting you all to myself & not letting another girl have your attention ... idk what it is i just hate the fact that i feel like im sharing you & i dont want to share either ... sometimes i wish that i was the only girl in the world ... because then i know for a fact you could leave me ... i sound crazy but it's how im feelin ... UGH i just get so frustrated sometimes because i feel like im making you my everything & your only making me an option ... i need to be your everything ... and soo much more . whatever i hate the fact that im soo darn sensitive and everything little thing you say too me i over think about it & wonder if you really mean it ... I NEED to work on my issues instead of keeping them bottled up ...because the more i keep them bottled up the more its gonna bother me ...