emotional WRECK !

so lately i've been kinda down , i've been having these gut feelings that something isn't right & im just to afraid to approach the problem because i don't want my feeling hurts ... like whatever it is i just hope its nothing bad .. because he promised to be faithful , never hurt me again , love me until death do us part .. I JUST DON'T KNOW . i don't wanna break up with him & im not going to but there is just a whole bunch of crap running through my mind right now & im not feeling it at all , its kinda scary to think we might be heading down that route again ... then i get on myspace from my phone & i was gonna write him a comment until i saw some shxt i didn't like ... UGH its like im tired of going through the same thing OVER OVER OVER again .. i just pray that im over reacting and what im feelin isn't real ... UGH FML !

LOVE LOVE LOVE : )

so this past weekend was absolutely wonderful ,like i said before i went to go see my boyfriend . I HAD a GREAT GREAT GREAT time & im not gonna lie there was alot of temptation while i was there ... but i held back cause i didn't feel like it was the right time . but OMG i missed him so much ; it was great to have him in my arms & to kiss him .... ahhh i was sad when i had to leave .. like sunday night i woke up in the middle of night to see if he was in the bed but he wasn't i got all depressed . lol this time our relationship feels like its going so well . THIS BOY is the guy of my dreams .. i love love him . & im happy we started over i can say this a million times & i still don't THINK i would get my point across . well anyways it already feels like i haven't seen him in years , i miss him alot & i can't wait til i see him again hopefully its real SOON = /

the day has finally COME =]

i haven't seen my boyfriend since freaking December and the day has finally come ... im going to DC tomorrow to see the love of my life & im just so excited ... i absolutely can't wait just to HOLD HIM & KISS HIM & CUDDLE WITH HIM ... ahh CAUSE i was going crazy these couple months without seeing my baby ... i was LOVE SICK lets just put it that way .. i can't even explain how happy i am .. but then again im kinda mad cause i started my bitchie girl ... EWWW . then i accidently sprayed perfume on my face & now i have lil bumps on my cheek : ( what else can go wrong right .. LMAO but who cares IM GOING TO DC to see my man & nobody can ruin my MOOD . its a 3 hour drive which isn't to bad . but heyy im just ready for tomorrow ; im already packed and everything yay !! well that was just a lil update ... I'LL TRY TO COME UP here more & write like i use too cause lately i have been slacking ... SORRY =] ..

UPDATE !!

hey guys its been awhile .. i've just been soooo busy with school & stuff .
well im doing okay ; i could be better . but with time i will be . um im still happily in love we have our problems just like every couple does .. i believe it will be better when i see him in 2WEEKS . but whatever ... && lately i've been working out like everyday just to stay in shape cause SIERRA DOESN'T WANNA GET FAT ! lol cause i gained some weight ewwww i need to go jean shopping cause i couldn't fit in some of my jeans LMAO so bad ... ahh lately i've been kinda down so i think that why i've gained some weight cause food IS MY HERO ! lol but whatevvs i just wanted to update you guys ..i'll keep you posted on my weight & life .. OKAY LATERSSS !