remorse .

this is a poem ; i wrote today so here it is ...

i feel some kind of remorse towards you because you didn't tell me why you left me in late august .

i feel some kind of remorse towards you because you said "will you be my girlfriend" ? on one of those drunk nights & couldn't even remember .

i feel some kind of remorse towards you because it seems like you never really cared or you woulda never left without speaking .

i feel some kind of remorse towards you because you left me with no closure & i still have feelings for you beyond a friendship .

i think im feeling remorseful because i was falling for you and you weren't there to catch me and i was left alone & now i miss you more and i wanna forget my stupid remorseful days .

im not a little girl anymore !!!

gosh im like so annoyed with my family ; im sick of them treating me like a freaking baby ... im gonna be 17 in july .. like seriously and like now all of a sudden my sisters have a problem with me hanging out with a boy WHO i have NO intentions dating he's like my bestfriend .. like get the heck outta here are you kidding me ... like both of yall lost yall v-card younger than me and i still have miine & your trippin cause i wanna hang with a friend ! it's so annoying im 16 and yall still give me a problem about trying a get a boyfriend ... & my mom claims she trusts me but shes in vegas and has a problem with me going to a boys house .. LIKE OMG can i grow up please .. im not a freaking little girl anymore ; so stop beating down my throat about the DUMB STUFF . ugh im so frustrated .. i swear sometimes i HATE BEING THE YOUNGEST . its like they WANT ME TO BE GAY OR something .. im gonna get a boyfriend eventually like leave me ALONE . ugh im just gonna stay to myself ; not tell my sisters or mom anything ;; and keep my mouth shut instead of being so OPEN with her . so i won't keep having these DUMB problems .. man i feel like screaming .

going CRAZY !

hm life has been pretty good , it could be a whole lot better if i got what i wanted ... & most of my friends know what i mean by that ... ugh school sucks its soo annoying & i don't like no one there but a few people that i do talk to . um the relationship status here is DEFINITELY single & i hate because i want what i had in the summer back ; like really bad .. but whatever gonna move on with my life & i can't be stuck on the same thing forever ; its like im so tired of getting mixed signals .. you either want me or you dont ... so frustrated . well i gotta go i don't really want talk anymore ,