sierra ?

ugh there is just somethings i wish i could change about myself .. like how complicated i am and how i fall so fast and put my all into relationships ... and i HATE how sensitive i am .. i take everything to the heart and it sucks & it's like i try soo hard to be strong and not let certain things phase me ... and deep down inside it eats me up ... and i like i hold on to so much ish from past relationships i don't know how to act when a good one COMES around .. 3 years i was on & off with this one dude you all know ..cause i wrote about him alot in my blogs .. i don't MISS ANYTHING about him ... he was just ridiculous like i could NEVER trust him .. so like i try my hardest not to fall into my old habits like over analyzing crap , and tryna always catch people in lies , and etc ... but i feel like if i dont change my ways i will ruin all the good relationships that come my way .. so when a good guy comes along i try everything in my POWER to do things right because i become attached quick and crap it just sucks .. and when i really like a guy i really like a guy like i hate when i get into arguements with them or they are mad at me ... it just weights heavy on my heart ... mmm its whatever though im gonna fix myself it may take time but its gonna happen for me ..


- s.von .

i would love a guy to sing these words to me ..

these lyrics are just amazing .. i don't care if your a guy and can't sing but if you sing these words to me ... i will love you forever i swear <3..

the song : part of the list by neyo .


Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
(you leave a room)
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
(my mind is where we meet)
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.


ne-yo did a amazinggg job on this song .. hmm

- s.von .

just avoid the trouble ......

1. It’s Only The Internet
- myspace and facebook can be the source of every couples fustration. trust me i know. try not to let the “groupies” get to you. remember he chose to be with you and not the girl on the other side of the computer screen. if it really bothers you casually bring it up and don’t jump to conclusions.

2. Don’t Snoop
- if you assume the worst, the worst is what you’ll find. if you think homeboy is cheating let the facts come to you. they don’t say patience is a virtue for nothing. do not snoop. i repeat do not snoop. a simple email from a co-worker or friend might lead to “he cheated” when it could really just be a casual conversation.

3. Keep The Past In The Past.
- i know this one is difficult for the ladies that have been through alot when it comes to the opposite sex but most people don’t go out their way for just anyone especially guys. if he is a gentlemen and treats you with respect then he most likely cares for you the way he says he does. i honestly don’t think 112 made the song Cupid for their health. try not to bring up the past and compare. let time tell and just live for the moment.

4. Remain Calm At All Costs.
- as hard as it is to keep your calm when you are angry at your significant other, never abandon your place as a lady. stay calm. evaluate the situation. use logic. screaming and nagging only makes the guy block you out. how can he listen to someone that is assuming the worst (i mean anyone would hate that).

5. Men Are From Mars & Women Are From Venus
- men and women are completely different. a women is more emotional and that is a fact. men on the other hand are emotional but usually keep it to themselves and don’t show it as much, of course they don’t want to abandon their masculinity (NO HOMO? lol). Keep that in mind. What you might find to be the biggest deal in the world might be insignificant to your guy. Don’t turn litle mistakes into big deals. People make mistakes. Don’t cry.

6. Let Him Do His Thang
- you have to let your guy live life. he can’t be with you 24/7. It gets boring. If he wants to go out with his friends let him. you let him in your life so you should have enough trust in him to let him go out. do the same ladies and you will feel less stressed. he had a life before you so let him do what he usually does (except if its unhealthy or unsafe, ha). remember he comes home to you.

7. Friendship to Foe Is A No, No
- if you were friends with your boyfriend before he wifed you try not to think about his old ways. he obviously felt the need to let you know in the first place. the past is the past like i said, so keep it there. he likes you!

8. Sex On The Brain?
- yes guys think about sex alot and 90% of the time they have it on the brain but they do have the other 10% working and functioning. sex is not everything to them. they feel too and have emotions and want a female with depth and personality. stop thinking he is with you for the pussy. a real guy will tell you straight up if thats what he wants and if he stays around after the deed then that says thousands. it means even more if he’s willing to wait. do not take that for granted especially it today’s society.

9. Never Be Rude To His Dudes.
- if you feel angry with your significant other in a social event that involves his circle of friends do not take it out on them. do not blame his friends for his behavior. always be respectful of the people in his life. guys like it when you get along with their friends. do you really want to be known as the bitch girlfriend. yes guys talk, they will fear you and not want you around. you do not want that.

10. Be Confident, Not Petty.
- don’t doubt yourself. even if your boyfriend is the hottest thing under the sun. he chose you dear. he wants your mind, body and soul. who cares what other girls think about you two. you have him, and thats all that matters. never put yourself down. it only lets the outsiders win. shine on and know your beautiful.

11. He Said She Said
- do not listen to your friends and their opinions on your boyfriend. you chose him. you kiss him, sex him, whatever. if you let outside people influence your relationship you will lose that connection with him. guys hate when your friends have shit to say. yes, sometimes its pure shit. go with your heart. the relationship you have built is YOURS and not your friends’. keep stuff to yourself if you have to.
its not called your personal life for nothing.
(threw the 11th one in for fun)


- got this off of jorene's blog .

- s.von .

hmm life .

im in cali , having a good time but im kinda missing va but i could so live here in california i love the atomosphere and the FOOD ! aha && i finally met kat von d and got her autograph i was so siked cause everyone knows i love love love her .. anyways since i've been in cali things seems like it's going different back home .. i don't know how but it just does ..i wish i could describe the feeling ... but i just couldnt really express it words .. but whatever maybe it will change when i get back ... ugh i know its kinda random but i absolutely hate liars so peopple just stop lying to me please cause thats one thing that just gets under my skin ... but whatever just a lil update ...


- s.von stupid ..

MJ'S GHOST !

look at the end of the hallway ..

man it's crazy that his is gone , but i love you michael you were great and you will truly be missed .

- s.von .

Nine Words Women Use

1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the football before helping around the house.

3. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

4. A Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer quickly to No 9 for the meaning of nothing.)

5. That’s Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That’s okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

6. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you’re welcome. (I want to add a clause here - This is true, unless she says ‘Thanks a lot’, which is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say ‘you’re welcome’ - that will bring on No. 7).

7. Whatever: Is a woman’s way of saying, “F– YOU!”

8. Don’t worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking ‘What’s wrong?’ For the woman’s response refer to No. 4.

9. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in “Fine”.

- sad to say but i do all of this : x

random .... aha ?

well , ive been slacking on my blogging and what not .. well im just gonna update you on some stuff i guess .. well one i can't believe MICHAEL JACKSON died .. im sad he was the greatest . umm im gonna be SIXTEEN absolutely can't wait july 18th should be a good day .. and im going to cali next week on the 9TH . im super excited but im gonna miss some special people & i learned some good news about my singing and what not ... gotta call from some big people who wanna sign but me ima chicken .. gotta get over stage fright . um its summer and im still single =/ argh story of my life .. and uh my ex recently texted me and i was really MAD about that so i just cussed him out .. cause i HATE him alot .. i know that a strong word but if you only knew what he did .. but anyways .. i just recently saw transformers 2 yeah good movie but its DUMB long for no reason .. and i hate the word DECEPTICONS . aha but uh ive officially came obsessed with TREY SONGZ .. mm he is simply amazing .. don't even get me started on fabolous .. aha yeah baby anyways uh i know this is like a super RANDOM blog but oh well i don't care ... well thats my update .. ttyl

- s.von nigga = ]