long distance relationship ....

" i can handle my long distance relationship , i just wish he lived here " .

- sierravon

blah blah blah !!

this week has been ughh , im just not really feelin it at all .. i am not happy and i know why im not happy but im just not doing anything about because if i do something about it nothing will change .. like right now it seems like certain things are fallin apart and usually im the one to pick up the pieces i'm tired of being the one to fix things when i see that things aren't going right like why can't you help me and try to make things right also ... man i just feel sooo alone and its just not FAIR i shouldn't feel this way at all .. it seems like people just don't care anymore about how i feel they just put everything aside . i don't know i just need attention i just want people to care more and i feel i put my effort into everything like i give 100% and i only get like 50% trust me its not a good feeling ... ugh i just wish people would understand . ugh i feel like having a melt down cause i feel like i have no one and its not a good feeling ... i just wish you cared more than you do cause i feel like i care more than you ..

sierravon.

COPY CATSSS !!!

i just wish people would get their own ideas instead of copyin my shit .. i mean if you like my blogss and you like the idea of one of my blogs give me some props don't take my shit and make it like it was your idea .. IM JUST SAYING be yourself and not try to do what i do and if you feel like im talkin about you in my blog then MAYBE I AM !! come talk to me if you gotta problem :) GET YOUR OWN IDEAS !


" monkey see monkey do , everybody wanna do what i do "



signed by
sierravon♥

july 30th 2007 ...

today is july 30th man oh man i will never forget this date , this is how everything started i'll never forget summer of 07' i was at my friend tatiana's house and i get a text from adrien around 11 something and he was askin me all these questions like did i like him and this and that .. then it finally hits 11:45 he texts me " will you go out with me " pssh i didn't know what to say cause i was shocked but i immediately said YES !! because i had liked him for so long but we were BESTFRIENDS and i didn't want it to be ruin .. so anyways we lasted for like a month and some other shit happen that i won't speak but lets just say by close to the end of august we weren't together no more and that lasted for awhile because he fell in love with someone .. so around the end of 9th we started talking again this was going into summer of 08' we had our share of problems but we talked for a longgg time .. then i cut him off again cause he was always doing something so my 10th grade year we talked on and off and then going into summer 09' we didn't TALK AT ALL !! basically all summer until i texted him in august after my cruise because when i was on my cruise he was all i could think about and kept tellin myself i made a mistake.. so it was when i was on my way to new york and i kept tellin my cousin butta i miss adrien i miss him so much then she was like i DARE you to text him .. so i got his number from my bestfriend kraig and i texted adrien and said "can we start over and be friends " then he was like yeah blah blah and from then on we have been cool ... so things started to get serious we started tellin each other that we still liked each other and all this other stuff and that we on until November and we kinda fell off but started back up in DECEMBER . so he comes here for winter break and i remember all the reasons why i went through the shit i did with him it was because i loved him and everything about him .. so 12.22.09 we decided that we were gonna try it again im tellin you now this relationship hasn't been easy at all but we have so many good things that it out weighs all the bad things .. and sometimes i feel like i need to change the way you handle certain things in our relationship but i can talk all day and tell you but nothing will change .. so i gave up in that area your just gonna have to figure out what your doing wrong .. but anyways since december i got to visit you twice in dc , once in march and once in may they were both wonderful times we spent together :) i enjoy your company adrien even when you piss me off , sometimes you even make me cry but at the end of the day i wouldn't go through half of this shit with anyone else and you mean the world to me .. see im not ASHAMED TO let everyone know how i feel about you cause i could talk about you all day with someone and have the biggest smile .. just know i was in love with you the day i met you .. and these couple years have been tough and i just hope you learned from all your mistakes in the past and won't fuck up this time .. because if i lose you i don't know what i would do it just would be a sad day but god forbid that happens .. i love you so much and happy anniversary .

" we have been thru so much and im in love you , so why let eighth grade love get away " - adrien

signed with love.

sierravon♥

"im glad im with you" - adrien

nothing even matters ...

" one day you will realize that you got something good infront of you ... "
" the day im gone will be the day you realize you messed up . "


- because at the end of the day , im the one who has to worry about me not anyone else ... im just feeling some type of way tonight pssh nothing even matters ..


sierravon♥

music music music ...

dear music ,

you don't know how much you mean to me , you are everything i live for besides GOD . music if it wasn't for you i wouldn't been able to make through my times of struggle like family issues , break ups , deaths etc.. music my love for you is unconditional sometimes when i talk about you i just wanna cry because its emotional for me because i love you like your my man or family .. its just very unexplainable . everytime i sing im thankful for you .. there is a song for every mood and wonderful beat to go along with it .. i've always been scared of someone leaving me but i know you would never let me down and there is no way you could hurt me ... just know music at the end of the day .. you are all i need to get me through the day because i know for a fact i couldn't survive in this world without you and GOD . i love you :)

signed music ,
sierraVON

just one of those days ...

its just one of those days , where i feel alone and just annoyed with everyone else because of the way im feelin .. i never knew how i could care so much about someone to the point i feel sick when they leave me ... and right now im so love sick its crazy i just can't wait until babe comes back because i just hate this feeling of him being so far away ... ugh i just find myself not being happy , i go out with my friends and all im doing is sitting there thinking i miss my babe .. trust me its no FUN feelin sappy not at all . well anyways today was kinda boring but yet interesting i hung out with my bestie carlinn we sang youtube songs all day it was kinda fun because i love singing lol . and then i went to the movies with my friends and saw despicable me for the second time -_- not feelin that because i wanted to see SALT . but it was way better than being in the house .. but i recently had someone i use to talk text me and told me they loved me and when we were together i waited for him to say it to me but when he said it to me he was DRUNK but drunk minds speak sober heart and he told me that i was his one true love and shit but i really don't believe him at all because he was always full of games , and no worries because i would never leave adrien for him .. but i just thought it was mad weird ... he shoulda thought about that a lil earlier , life goes on and i refuse to dwell on it .. im just ready for my man to come back , because it just one of those days im missin him .

signed by ,
sierraV O N